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There are times that walk from you like some passing afternoon...

so  tomorrow is jake's first day of school. while the idea of him embarking on this new journey has had me in almost tears for the past month, it wasn't until tonight that i realized that things are changing on a more permanent basis. for the next 13 years, we are committed to this new schedule, this new cycle. from there, i realized that in 13 years i'll be 37, and both of my children will be nearly grown. and well, from there, i sort of just tumbled downward into this lonely place that makes me wish i could freeze time. and in knowing that i can't ever do that, the imminent failure just upsets me even more. *sigh*

There are things that drift away like our endless, numbered days
Autumn blew the quilt right off the perfect bed she made

Writer's Block: When I Was Young

What do you miss most about being a kid?
tomorrow never coming. time was an endless spectrum, and more importantly, so was i. as a grown up i always feel like i'm running out of time, always missing something, and tomorrow is fast approaching.

Jun. 6th, 2009

i find that when i drink, which is rare nowadays, i want to talk. alot. to anyone. it makes me want to spark up a conversation with long lost friends, even when time has drifted each of us so far away that we are practically strangers. weird.

my eyeballs are burning slightly. could be from smoke, possibly eyeliner that's gone bad. *shrug* 

i really wish there was a 90's karaoke bar that i could go to with an unlimited flow of miller high life. that would be sweet.

so....isn't it clear why i don't update anymore? my thoughts are often too pronounced to type them all, and even if i did, you wouldn't understand most of it. my fault, surely. and then there are moments like now where the best i can offer is "durrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr"

but such is life. complicated thoughts + durr moments = me. simple enough.

i miss having friends round here. nothing but strangers in wolves' clothing. sad, but true.

*seriously, happily adjusting to a new life, but missing fragments of the old life.
graduated :o) onward to my next degree!

Writer's Block: Heart to Heart

i love valentines! sure it's commercialized and full of shit for the most part, but i love the decorations, the fun useless party favors, and those damn heart balloons.

i also love long island ice teas. those fucking rule.

this isn't my "real" update that i need to do since i'm in washington now, but it's coming i swear. i hope everyone had a nice holiday and had fun regardless.


kisses for ya!!!!!

Voice Post

298K 1:32
“Hey guys, it's just a quick update. We're right now, we're right outside the part in California on our way to Bernard's parents. This is to be my first time meeting them so I'm kind of excited too. You know I think I meet them and enjoy their company but it should be really fun. Perhaps, don't know, intimidating maybe I don't know. Hear them mostly, but they're not gonna like me but that's ok because they're stuck with me anyway. Anyway, so yeah, nothing else is really going on. The trip is almost over. We've been on the road for a week now and we should be getting in to Washington within a few days. If going through Oregon they're else where. The last time I saw it in the back of lot of snow and crap and it there's water and slide it there at some kind of natural disaster. I don't know. It's hard to keep track of the weather while on here except for the fact that it is very, very foggy in California. Just not well, yeah I did realized that it was like it. So after coming out of the Arizona area which were totally clear and now I'm in this tall gray neat Tom. It's a little different. Oh, that's one of the background if you can't hear. She expect to put her in juice in for. So defines everything else everything is going good. So logging was the worst thing that happen so, I'm thankful for that and you know, I don't get hurt or anything so this is just a little quick update. It's probably very boring for everything but I saw it and need to do it because I have free weekend minutes and I want burn on it on everything I can. Ok, alright well later. Bye.”

Auto-Transcribed Voice Post - spoken through SpinVox

Voice Post

10K 0:03
“contained in this tiny 'bloop' is 5 days worth of emotion. i wanted to say more, but when it comes down to it i'm just too tired. currently in flagstaff, arizona. it's a beautiful state and the large amount of snow is confusing to me.

btw, don't go to albuquerque, new mexico. i was there but one night and got robbed at fake gun point. yes, fake gun point. *sigh* regardless, the little fucker scared the hell out of me and made off with my purse (which included the new wallet athena got me for christmas) so i am currently traveling with no id, license, or cat sedatives. which means i am also traveling with a very loud obnoxious cat. and to the little fat thief who enjoyed using my bank card for 42 dollars worth of food from sonic, fuck you. you are pathetic and i hope you got diarrhea. which is pretty much guaranteed since sonic was involved.

moving on. i'm in a hotel and i'm tired. i miss all my friends and family, but the rest of the world is worth seeing.

p.s. like i could really stay offline for too long, HA!”

Transcribed by: ilovellamas
going offline for awhile. packing up the computers before the movers come. will be back in probably a month or so, depending on when we get settled in washington. so leave lovins and what not if you want to. i won't be offended if you don't :o)


Writer's Block: Full Moon Fever

It's the full moon today. Almost every culture has its share of lunar lore, from werewolves to lunacy to true love. Do you believe that the full moon affects our behavior or do you think it's a myth?
i have extreme road-rage sometimes. and i can definitely say that when the full moon approaches, more and more idiots clog the roadways. i've also been warned of full moon crazies by my mother since i was young. "be careful tonight, it's a full moon and people get weird." so i keep a watchful eye out during the full moon and try to steer clear of swerving cars and people muttering to themselves.